the road to the luau OR they paved paradise and put up a picture of me

so just when i think i am super cool (ok ok, maybe not SUPER cool but heading in the right direction of cool) someone yanks out a picture to prove me wrong.




so the picture in question is of the luau ... i think i mentioned it once or twice here so you all know what i am talking about. now let me just say that i think there is a definite change in how i come out in pictures and how i THINK i look. i am hoping the pictures are going to one day portray me in a dorothy lamour or betty grable kind of sexiness ... you know, not smokin' hot but smoldering in a sweet sort of way ( i unfortunately have the sort of face that will NEVER ever be considered gorgeously sexy ... not sure which ethnicity i have to blame for that). i just look goofy. there is nothing i can do about it.

i am a freelance make up artist ... so it's not like i don't KNOW what to do with my face or hair. it's just that my face is much more akin to one of the brady kids (an ethnic version) or maybe lilo's sister in that disney movie. oh how i have always wanted to look like the narrow straight nosed golden haired girls that grew up around me.

yes i know it was wrong, but i wanted to be an aryan princess - god help me.

so when i go out and get all costumed up (as i did for the luau), i like to think that i have somewhat achieved the oneness with the OC beauty that i have been chasing for so long.

uh - no

so this picture just sort of correctly portrays what i did achieve ... complete and utter silliness. an island girl who looks as though she has taken one too many hits off the ole bong.

well, i guess it could be worse ... i could be wearing a muu muu.